Re-Birth Day

Today is my Re-Birth Day

One year ago today my life was extended by a great team of Neurosurgeons

I can't believe it's been a year

My head thinks it's July...so the shorter days and changing trees are unexpected

And because of that are even prettier than I remember

I also can't believe I'm still healing

I've been awed by how far I've come

The body's ability to heal is truly amazing

I have a new respect for how intricate this vessel I'm in is

Every part working together to create a whole

There are days I can't see or hear very well from my left side

There are days if I try to drive too far or do too much

that I spend the evening in pain

Miraculously I'm alive

I can walk, talk (too much), drive short distances

I can feed, dress, bathe myself

I measure time day by day

I no longer feel a longing for close friendships

Because I've discovered that I always had them in my sisters

The Habitat for Humanity gives me a sense of peace

And I'm awed by strangers' generosity

 Everyday I look in the mirror and don't quite recognize that new person

There are days I fight hard not to look away in disgust 

And those days I force myself to look deeper

To look at the bumps and dents on my face and head and that odd hairdo

And recognize that this is my armour

I just came out of battle and I'm stronger because of it

In the oddest of ways the aneurysm was a blessing 

Not one I want again - lol!

But one I know I needed