Delirium?

I've been busy lately

After building the table

my hubby offered to let me help build the garage

After erecting four walls my brother in law arrived and I was fired

Can you say 'grrrrrrrrr'

Instead of standing up for myself...or pushing someone off the closest ladder

I'm ashamed to say I pouted for a few hours

Ate Reeses

Then launched a mass attack on the house

I reorganized every closet and crawl space

Delivered five bags of clothing and stuff to Goodwill

Sorted through every single piece of paper and file in this house

Medical, school, work, birth/death certificates, house sales/purchases, divorces/marriages

It was like an episode of This is Your Life

Watching my life thus far unfold before me flip book style

Flipping through old work blueprints and files (and the smell of lumber outside)

made me miss work even more

Flipping through old sketches and finding notes for new project ideas

made me want to try creating more

With a 'oh what the hell' muttered under my breath

I swore at my dueling personalities

Told them to start playing nice...or else

But each wants something completely different

Each as stubborn as the other and determined to win

 I then remembered a conversation with my NY friend a few weeks ago

I told her that at the center of my family crest are two rams butting heads

She looked at me and said 

"Perfect. The point at which they meet is the strongest...much like an arch"

~

An arch uses compressive forces to hold it together in a state of equilibrium

(Ok...I'm about to get deep here so grab a seat)

What if the reason I've developed these 'dual personalities'

Is not to drive me batty

but because I'm supposed to use the finest qualities of both

Each supporting the other in a perfect balance

much like the archway

where I'm to walk through and emerge a stronger person on the other side

Yep it could be that

Or it could be that I'm delirious with exhaustion since I was back on garage duty today

And every molecule of my body is in a good-sort-of-pain

tee hee