The New Normal

I've been interacting with other aneursym people online

Each with different stories...each one a reminder why I'm

SO DAMNED LUCKY

Because had mine popped...well I wouldn't be here yapping

But I'm intrigued by what they all call the New Normal

We will never be normal again so we accept a New normal

Thoughts, bodies, relationships forever affected

The other thing is the intense need for survivors to help others

Some people make themselves available as support systems

to others affected by aneurysms

Some begin volunteering at the hospitals

Some become cheering squads or lead prayer groups

They all reevaluate what they once thought was important

I'm still in the early stages

Still finding comfort in washing dishes and clothes

It has a start and a finish. 

But I also noticed that I have an intense need for order

Things need to be put away...and they aren't always

I have been slowly letting go of people and things that have to be let go

I have gone through the basement and have a large pile to go

I have gone through the studio and donated piles of potential projects

I keep asking the worried looking husband if it's ok

and he said so long as we still have furniture he doesn't care

I'm not replacing things...I'm cleansing

And in cleansing I have discovered a new intense desire to help others

So since I'm so darned yappy I figured I'd put it to use

I've offered my yappy skills to the Habitat for Humanity

until I am physically able to help if ever

I've also offered to help at the new Church I joined

I send out my little cards to those who express a desire to end it

with the hopes that they'll remember they still matter

And then there's Madame Styx...

I know there's something I need to do there 

but honest to goodness I haven't a clue

I need to run some things past an artist advisor of sorts

But I haven't located such a person and I suspect it's because

I haven't come to terms with something in my heart

besides

I'm not in control

I just go where I'm led

It's the New Normal