Follow Your Passion-Yeah Ok.

In the years since starting My Quest

i.e. since I woke up to Life

I've heard alot of people saying 'just follow your passion'

Ok, I get that...I'm not stupid after all

But what those people don't seem to understand is how do you follow your passion

When you have no clue what your passion is

So I read alot of books

because everyone knows a book will tell you what your passion is

(smirk)

I followed the blogs of those who were following their passion
(thinking I might find a hidden clue)

I started questioning those passion followers - "How did you know?"

(hoping some of the magic would rub off)

But most of the responses were the same

A stupid smirk (yeah I could see it through email) and the response

"Oh you just know"

(by the way passion followers you're lucky I have great restraint

because I wanted to scrunch the smirk between my finger tips)

So I pressed on

"How do you know?"

and the response was always

"It's that one thing you want to do all day. Can't imagine not doing it."

(my teeth and fingers clenched) 

"Just focus on one thing. You're too scattered."

Ok. That makes some sense. Thank you.

So I used all I learned and tried to focus on one thing.

But instead of focusing, my soul pulled even harder in different directions.

Thinking perhaps the passion followers were part of an ancient secret society

I just had to accept I wasn't part of it & quit trying to find my passion

I let that one part of me that wanted to play with Madame Styx do so

and now she's become part of me

I often think in Madame Styx sketch-format and laugh at inopportune times

But she's not my passion if defined as 'that one thing you want to do & can't imagine not'

rather, she's the manifestation of my inner guide who tries to talk sense to me

and knowing I'm pig-headed

had to resort to using line drawings to get through to me 

successfully becoming an extension of who I am

In turn, all the other things that call to me started shouting 'Me too! Me too!'

Telling myself Focus! One thing! I tried ignoring them.

Then I went on vacation

I learned more about Amelia Earhart, the Wright Brothers, Harley, 

some presidents, some military,  & others before & after them

they didn't follow one passion

in some way or another their other passions fed into each other 

yes, one always stands out ahead of the others

but it's in following what they felt drawn to that helped them succeed in the others

it wasn't success measured in dollars or fame

(although it may have started with that desire)

but rather measured in its ability to help humanity

to make an impact - a stepping stone

What I've discovered so far is there are no rules for discovering your passion

Passion defines itself differently for everyone

It can be one specific passion

or seemingly unrelated interests that end up linking into each other

like the links in a chain link fence

building upon each other, expanding, strengthening

My passion is Life

each of my interests exposes who I am and my boundaries are stretched

I explore, learn, grow and share

And in the process I hope to one day touch someone else 

and open their eyes to the awesomeness they hold inside

if they just get out of their own way

I'm thankful to the passion followers who do what they do

to the beauty they bring into the world

and truth be told if I were to really think about one thing 

that makes my soul jump cartwheels & gives me goosebumps

it would be music

but I don't play an instrument nor can I sing

so is it a passion even if you can't do it?

Follow your passion to me means follow the voice in my soul

all of them
with no predefined measures of success
just have fun with it