I'll be fine

Sorry for the whinies lately

Is that a word? Well it defines what I've been doing

I called the doc who said I have LPR reflux

and said how do I reduce the swelling in my throat

nurse says you can't

I say med doesn't seem to make a difference

nurse says take two

I say what are the side effects

nurse says I'm not sure

I get the impression we're all in the same monkey cage 

scratching our butts

So I started gargling with salt and drank some Gingerale 

which for some reason took swelling down

Does Gingerale even have real Ginger?

LOL

I asked my primary doctor for help

He wants me to swallow barium

I've been CAT scanned so much these past months

I'm afraid I can now glow in the dark

So I'm taking my chances and hiding from them

Unless of course my throat closes and I can't breathe

Then I'll be crawling back

I ask if I can take natural stuff and they say no

I ask if I can do things to prevent and they say

we'll run tests and give you meds

I've decided I need my Grandma

She'd whip up a concoction of plants and fix me 

But she's in heaven so I'm waiting for her to send me the person I need

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I think I've found a church

It's not the old dark Romanesque style I want but it's homey

And we went to Mass Sunday and it's obvious I've been away too long

The responses have changed but the feeling was nice

Not a full squeeze hug type feeling but a nice pat on the back

There was a baptism during Mass for a little one named Amelia

I thought how fitting to return to Church on that day

Baptism, renewal, welcoming

I'm not 100% yet but I'm getting there

I've passed the cognitive part of my driving test

I'm going through physical therapy to strengthen muscles

Even my eye muscles! How funny!

They finally took glue (and hair) off my head and it's nice and airy now

The throat will heal...along with the weird allergies

just as soon as I purge all the meds from my system

And I will try to stop whining!

But through it all I try to hold tight onto trust

I will be fine