And life goes on...

I was doing a brainless task last night when the power went out

I blinked a few times trying to accustom my eyes to the

A B S O L U T E    D A R K N E S S

telling myself that NO, nothing was creeping out of the shadows

T O    G E T   M E

(blinking faster)

 

Once my eyes dilated I found that the darkness wasn't 'absolute'

Although I couldn't see as much I could still make things out

I just had to move slower so as not to fall and bash my head

and...wait did that shadow just move?

(blinking faster)

~ ~ ~

It occurred to me in the safety of the light when the generator kicked on

(heehee)

that I had been in a blackout phase of life

Between seeing people wandering around who weren't physically there

and my brain not functioning quite right

 and my body acting as if it belonged to someone else...

There were no answers...nobody could say when the lights would come back on

The shadows loomed and threatened to get me

Then I blinked

I learned to move slowly as I became acclimated

I started to recognize things in the darkness

I found the love of my family, the strength which backed me, I found laughter

But I also discovered that sometimes the darkness invaded my brain

It spoke of untold horrors waiting in future shadows

Trying to convince me that I must now live life hidden...and safe

But there's a light inside me

that reminds me that I wouldn't have been given another chance

if I was to live hidden away in the safety of home

Instead I am moving slowly in the darkness 

I am finding that things here look, sound, smell...differently

I am reconnecting to life on different terms

And it's quite beautiful

So for now I'm taking it easy

the darkness is dissipating

but while the shadows still roll and threaten

I'm beginning to understand its language

And when I find patches of light - I bask in their beauty

 

Like this super rare Christmas hug and smile from my most precious gift