I ran away today...

It started yesterday

like a tiny, persistent, hard to reach itch inside snowboots

I mistook it for loneliness, tried ignoring it, bribing it

eventually put it to sleep and was rewarded with childhood nightmares

Upon awakening I slowly opened my eyes

wondering if it was gone

and quickly discovered that my restless gypsy spirit was revolting

I felt caged

I felt like my throat would close

feeling downright claustrophobic

Wanting to run; needing the road; wanting my bike

Longing not to be tied down to the domestic anchor

I became vicious

Took The Kid to school

then spoke to my angels 

"Ok, look, my soul is aching for something 

I need your help; give me something to calm it down

before it tears me apart-you tell me where to go & I'll follow"

And I drove. I ran away.

Turned left or right when the word popped into my head

I ended up in the forest preserve

Still feeling cranky, and now cold, I questioned my sanity

Until I reached this point

I smiled

I must be on the right track

I was running 'Away' after all, right?

So I continued 

smiling a bit as I felt the trees' energy around me

 Listening to my footsteps and the occasional bird

Until I heard a low rumbling

Wondering what it could be

And as I turned the corner this is what I saw

 

 Smiling wider I moved closer

Climbing over fallen rocks and trees

 Until I could feel the air generated by the falling water

 

And I sat upon a rock

closed my eyes, listened to the water, and meditated

After a while I opened my eyes & felt complete peace

my soul was content

I had run away and given it what it needed

I sat for an hour alone-but not alone

and my soul was thrilled

 As I left I thanked the Great Spirit and my angels a gazillion times

I came home smiling; my heart and soul feeling alive
~ ~ ~
I forgot that being around too many people
does this to me
I felt like a dirty sponge!