Crabby Happy Pants

Just so I know I'm not crazy

I feel crazy

It's about 14 days or so and I feel best at nights

I remember going into surgery perfectly

I was afraid for a split second wondering...what if

 Then I felt the headache as they tried waking me and knew I was back

From the looks on my families faces I realized The Doc had told them

that if my aneurysm had popped I would have died

 Atleast they didn't have to worry

But I didn't count on the looooooong time it's taking to heal

Yeah yeah I hear ya...14 days is well only...14 days

But it feels like a gazillion years

heehee

The thing is I'm near humiliated

I need a walker to walk until my eye opens up again

My family has to bathe me

as in 'don't wet cut too directly'

There's a gash w/ something that feels like cold candle wax

from one side of my head to the middle

But mostly I'm kinda confused by all the ailments

It's like my body is freaking out

But today I felt horrible

My two sisters are taking care of me right now; all day and night

They were making soup and I started getting sick on the smell of the meat

She had to go finish cooking outside. OUTSIDE! Poor thing!

I was humbled by their love.

I kept apologizing.

They keep reminding me the doc says by this time next year

I'll be good as new

UGH!

Lol but I do have to admit

my hubby gave me a sudafed by accident

and I was hallucinating for a few days

atleast I know dreams behind the lids stay there when you open them

but I did spend a whole weeknight attending a Lithuanian dream

I unfortunately didn't understand

It seemed like lots of fun and full of historical value

Sorry my eyeball is too tired to go back to read

You don't even have to read

I'm feeling crabby at the daytime self of me

But happy at night

So all is still good I suppose

:)