What Procrastination Looks Like

Webster's defines Procrastination as:

  to put off intentionally and habitually

  to put off intentionally the doing of something that should be done

I define Procrastination as:

brain constipation

duck-n-dodge-itis 

can't-fail-if-I-don't-start-itis

where-the-hell-am-I-supposed-to-put-all-the-crap-itis

but-it's-so-blank-itis

guilt-itis

(adding -itis always makes it sound clinical, thus something that solicits sympathy)

 and finally

THIS POST

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The reality is

I'm stuck in the rut

Sure I spent lots of time with my Mama until she healed

Then went through a goofy brain dead spell

as I tried to remember what I was doing

And just as I started to remember, the kiddo came home

And we dove head first into football and running for physicals, equipment, practices

back-to-school preps, interviewing orthos for the dreaded braces

What the?

And suddenly I'm overwhelmed with guilt over not being at my Mama's

guilt over the rising resentment in a sibling

needing to spend time with the kid to avoid a repeat of the crazies a month ago

and it all has led up to a very confused me

or, since that's my norm, a feeling of having been spun

and let go

Remembering Pancho I announced I was going to the studio

and look what greeted me

Apparently I was trying to clean back in March when my Mama became ill

and the funny thing is I can't find any artwork

looks like I gave it all away

So I'm trying to clean it before practice 

because the kiddo goes to his dad for the weekend

and I'm hoping I can lock myself in for that time

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Why are you reading this anyway! Enough Procrastinating!