Legacy

Love getting together with my family

Mama, sisters, their kids and grandchildren

But I was sick and quietly observed

My sister said something about illnesses being genetic

about once it starts...

And looking around I realized that amongst them 

the three young adults have diabetes and epilepsy

every aunt and uncle we've lost has been to cancer

and except for the teens on down

nobody looked really healthy

I felt my spirit droop

I told myself to accept my fate

I've been sick, am sick, and will stay sick

On my silent drive home I felt sick and saddened

to quiet the chatter in my head I chose to listen to an old Abraham-Hicks tape

and heard how illness is an indicator of resistance

 ask what subtle but chronic thoughts that now feel normal

have caused the body to throw up the red flag

And I laughed at my silliness

I quickly accepted the idea that I was doomed to illness because it 'runs in the family'

It was like I threw on the cloak of illness

and settled down into a little niche to accept my fate

and mark notches on the wall counting the time left

And yet, why am I not as fast at accepting the other side

In between epileptic seizures, my grandpa farmed and

carved furniture, utensils and coffins in Mexico

My grandma could have been 'Rosie the Riveter' shouting "Yes, We Can"

farming, storytelling, making & mending clothing for the village

And then there's my Dari and Mama...

Creativity. Strength. Grit.

That's the legacy that rings true

and once I stop being a bonehead I'll accept it with open arms
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I spoke with my Mama this morning
She said she left dinner sad yesterday
Seeing how her whole family is ill
Afraid that it will crumble once she moves on
I told her about my new revelation
and reminded her that my stubborn streak far exceeds illness
and that I would whip them into shape
She reminded me I was named after my Grandma
and before hanging up told me
"Get out of your own way Elena"

It's funny. 

This elder of mine thinks she's humble and uneducated

and yet

I've never met anyone with the strength and wisdom she possesses.

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What you do is miniscule in comparison with what you choose to think, because your vibration is so much more powerful and so much more important.

--- Abraham