Annoying Habits

In talking to a friend I discovered an odd habit; I hardly ever sleep in bed

I wander the house in search of a place to sleep

On the rare occasion that I start in bed; I leave within the hour blaming it on a snoring hubs

But the truth is, I got used to sleeping alone when I was divorced

And so now I wander between the couch, a futon, the floor

But then I remembered being a kid and having the same issue

I wandered the house in search of a place to sleep

It started out that I used to have to share a bed with my brothers or sisters

Then when they moved away, I chose the couch, the floor, the balcony

When things were bad I used to sleep across my Mama's bedroom doorway,

the kitchen or propped near the bathroom...where I could run fast if needed

It all makes me wonder about the funny habits I train myself into

This odd sleeping behavior is probably what's causing me to be so sleepy during the day

This restlessness has become such a part of me that I don't even recognize it anymore

So because I'm so sleepy and thoughts are disconnected

I'll share something I shared with my Artists Way tribe yesterday

As I lay sleeping on the couch, the Harvest moon shone on my face

the words in quotations kept running through my head

until I had to get up and write them down

if I hoped to get any more sleep

 ~ ~ ~

It whispers in my soul; a calling, a longing for something

Ignored, it becomes louder beckoning; insisting

I tell it to go away

Unable to be contained, It reaches out seeking;

winding along my body, reaching out with tendrils

It wraps and tightens;

I catch my breath; I cannot breathe

Beseechingly I look upon the Harvest moon in silent plea

"As you guided the farmers to bring in their crop, 

So too light the way to the harvest in my soul!"

And for a moment the tendrils stop reaching as they wait in anticipation

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Did I mention how dramatic I am in the middle of the night?

Heehee

The thing is, as annoying as that restlessness can be, it also pushes my growth.

For now, the hubs has offered to buy me a bed