"Going Sane"

First I want to say thank you for the beautiful comments

for my mug shot on the previous post

I am proud to say I haven't deleted it

A quick peek at the blog posts lately confirms that the Artists Way

is making me nuts

Or perhaps what I told my friend is actually true

I said doing the Artists Way is like stirring the gravel in a fish bowl

All the crap swirls around and around

You can leave it and wait for it to settle (but it'll still be there building up)

Or you can clean it out

Who would have know I had so much hidden crap?!

I'm having trouble understanding this inner child thing

But from the temper tantrums happening around a certain studio

I'm not dismissing the whole idea

 The images in my head swirl gloriously

But there is a translation problem between head and hand

The head shouts to the hand that it looks all wrong

Absolutely not the image it had; the hand screams back 'you do it then'

And my feet join in the fight by stomping out of the studio

I dramatically throw myself at my tribes' feet 

as I moan that I must be wishfully thinking that I possess an artistic gift

and dramatically wonder how to sell my supplies

And yet, I can't walk away

It's like having a crush on someone who doesn't know you're alive

That feeling when we've connected is intoxicating

So it must love me back right?

Damned temperamental muse

So as I walk around the latest disaster pleading for the head and hand

to just play nice

this song kept running through my head 

Pink's Glitter in the Air

I thought Yes! That is what painting/drawing makes me feel like!

 Pink's lyrics "It's only half past the point of no return~ 

The tip of the iceberg, the sun before the burn~ 

The thunder before lightning, the breath before the phrase~ 

Have you ever felt this way?

So if I have those feelings then I must possess some talent (right?right!)

I mean the art gods can't be so cruel that they would let me see

what the creations will look like in my mind

but not give them life

would they?

I just need a translator

I wonder if Rosetta Stone has one

Or maybe I'm fooling myself

Arghh!

Ok so since you shared the love on the previous post

and put up with my dramatic meltdowns (heehee)

Or as Julia Cameron says in the Artists Way

"At first going sane can feel just like going crazy"

I'm giving away this book

Art Saves by Jenny Doh

the title is poetic justice no?

So if you're interested in the book

Leave me a note that says ay or nay

And I'll pick someone on Sunday 9/25