Tornado

I handle worry like a gathering tornado – my mind picking up any loose thoughts and fears and spinning them out of control ready to create destruction. If I’m not careful, I can remain in this endless worry rotation – expecting the doom of a touchdown at any moment. But I happened upon a passage in Julia Cameron’s book, Walking in This World, that made me pause. “Worry is the imagination’s negative stepsister….The more active-and even more negative-your imagination is, the more it is a sign of creative energy….When worry strikes, remind yourself your gift for worry and negativity is merely a sure sign of your considerable creative powers…We can learn to throw the switch that channels our energy out of worry and into invention.”

Could this be true? For me, yes. I thought back to the many times I’ve had to make tough choices. In the weeks, months or even years before I will worry until I have a full fledged tornado that hasn’t touched down yet. My tornado spins and becomes larger and larger the more I feed it the negative drama. When it does, it will be worse than any destruction ever seen! My mind loves being dramatic ;)

Then something happens, and suddenly I “switch that channel” and all that mind drama starts to funnel to a touch down. A positive touch down. I don’t even remember what I had been worrying about and charge full speed ahead. Everything falls into place – successfully. I’ve been told many times that once I reach that point, it's best to stand out of my way.

I wish I could go back and tell those people who said something was wrong with me for always thinking negatively that NO, NOTHING is wrong with me. I just have to learn to channel that creativity outwards. I’m aware now that I am capable of switching the channel and making some amazing changes.

Now I just have to find the damned remote…