The Have's and Have Not's

 As I rushed out the door this morning

I heard something on the radio that made me stop

"Rock bottom is where God goes to recreate people"

And that reminded me of something hubby said he dreamed about

one of those days when I last saw him

(when was that...hee hee)

He said he dreamed about 2012

and that it would come down to those that 'have' and those that don't

that many of those that 'have' would lose it

he called it 'the have's and the have nots'

I'm intrigued that so many people start to discover their true selves

once they have either lost someone, something, or faced a major event

rock bottom

Why is that

I understand the loss of someone or perhaps a major illness

But when you lose the material things or the jobs or the 'stuff'

Is it because you're suddenly stripped of what you identified with?

What you thought defined you?

Even more intriguing that sometimes friendships follow those things
being stripped away

It's like a scab peeled away to expose new skin

(eeeew gross)

It's as if the Universe gets tired 

of watching many of us walk through life 'zombified'

and it grabs us by the shoulders and shake us up a bit

('have or have not')

and we either snap or we wake up

and when you wake up

whoa

 I wonder if that's what it feels like after cataract surgery

~ ~ ~

Mama still healing

Rental almost ready for occupancy 

Two good things that have come of this

I remember now what it felt like to live in my car and that gas costs $50 a week

I'm not missing work anymore

And I'm so sick of McDonalds and pop that the mere thought makes me cringe

So when I'm back home (soon?) I want healthy food

~ ~ ~

For the record

I was a have

and I feel richer as a have not

in a sense

it's made me a have 

on a whole other (Universal) scale

Thank God He met me at rock bottom

(hee hee, this is the result of tired brain)