Psssst.....hi

I'm starting to lose touch

With up or down

Even more so than my usual self

Hee hee!

 It's like the rollercoaster that

lifts and dips and spins and curves

Rattling your head to and fro so fast

You don't know what's going on

This being 'thrown back into the ring' of society

has been interesting

 I've had to pull in the reigns when my mind threatens to whine

and retreat into a zombified state of just being

When I realized I had spent $150 on gas in ONE week

I reminded myself it was well spent to be with my Mama

When I started to feel the despair at seeing all the old people

in the nursing rehab center; looking sad and alone

I reminded myself to smile and say hello and they had lived full lives

I made up life stories for them as I watched and studied

When I started to complain about the work at the condo

I thanked God it rented so I could pay that mortgage

I'm proud that I'm learning to flip the switch on my thoughts

For my own sanity

And yet, some funny things have occurred

Tearing up the bedroom carpet and rolling it into manageable sizes

I reached for the roll of duct tape I'd left by my knee a minute ago and couldn't find it

I unrolled the carpet thinking I'd left it inside

I finally found it on the kitchen counter

For the last several weeks I kept dreaming about the dryer vent

You know that flexible metal hose that looks like cool robot arms

Every morning I'd tell hubby that I thought we had to check the condo

Finally he agreed to look

Turns out it had fallen off and there was lint all over the place

The other night around 3 a.m. I was in a deep sleep

The dog cuddled next to me

When I was woken by a whisper in my ear "Psssssssst....Hi"

The dog lifted her head and looked around

So did I

And I said out loud

"Really? At 3 a.m? You woke me up, mustered up all that energy

Just to say "psssst....hi?"

Very funny. Let me sleep."

Then I thought about it

Had I heard anything more

I would have peed

These are the last two days working at the condo (yay!)

Then I could focus just on the Mama who is doing better

As soon as I can I will visit y'all

Promise